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In the Hell of Schizophrenia… Am I Merely a Patient, or the Key to a Great Secret?
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I have experienced the absolute worst symptoms of schizophrenia in my life—the most dangerous, and the most severe. The reality of this condition can hardly be captured in a simulation video of a schizophrenia
What a Jewish Man Told Me About My People: Confessions of a Monitored Palestinian—And Are Palestinians Victims of a System or the Architects of Their Own Destiny?
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Once, a Jewish man told me that my people were backward, as if their souls and degraded minds held no value in their view. He told me, “Don’t worry about them,” as though they
The Tax of Pleasure: When Heavy Drinking Steals My Sanity… and My Inability to Enjoy Life Sober
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Recently, I have found myself blaming myself the day after heavy drinking, as I realize that my actions under the influence are becoming dangerously alarming. Although I mostly view my behavior as reasonable and
Crossing the Fog of Psychosis: My Journey of Reclaiming Self, Breaking the Silence, and the Miracle of Healing
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site In the past, during my episodes of schizophrenia, my mental perceptions lacked logic, structure, and coherence, and I was overwhelmed by delusions. I lacked the self-awareness to realize that my thinking was distorted. My
Beyond the Abyss of Illness: Not Fully Cured, Yet Proud of My Path
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site When someone falls to the rock bottom of illness, returning to a completely normal state becomes difficult—if not impossible. A part of them will remain sick under all circumstances and through every form of
A Prisoner in My Homeland: A Palestinian Behind the Wall Longs for the Country’s Alleys, Wandering Streets, and the Road to Bethlehem
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site These days, I am constantly reminded that I have been deprived of my freedom and my right to move within my homeland for nearly two years and a few months. I have reflected on
Between Schizophrenia and Revelation: The Manifestation of the Exalted Spirit and the Sovereign Might of Hidden Entities in a Realm of Symbols and Forgotten Truth
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Since my childhood, my mind has been utterly fascinated by foreign films. I did not view some of these films merely as fiction; rather, I absorbed and studied their concepts with utmost seriousness, processing
Not Sick with the World, But Sick Because of It: On a Soul Unborn to Affliction, and a World That Corrupted the Chemistry
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site All my life, existence has been unduly harsh and unsparing toward me. I was not merely someone struggling in quiet adversity; rather, the world confronted me with unrelenting cruelty from every angle. My life
The Childhood Home: Where Trauma Began, Wandering Ended, and Schizophrenia Turned into Reconciliation
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Throughout my entire life, I have moved from one house to another, staying in my deceased father’s home only during the first eight years of my childhood. Numerous other houses followed, most of which