By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Every time I was admitted to the psychiatric hospital, the very first thought that crossed my mind upon waking up on day one was escape. That thought was deeply ingrained in my mind at
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Between the TV Screen and the Shadows of Psychosis: My Story with the Presenter Who Called My Name… and Memoirs of a ‘Ghost’ on the Highway
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site During one of the periods of my illness, while I had stopped taking my medication for several weeks, I was living alone at home. I would sleep for days on end, deeply immersed in
The Failure to Quit: When Medication Becomes an Inescapable Destiny
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site At many stages of my life, I was consumed by a strong desire to stop taking my psychiatric medications. Yet, every single time I tried, I would ultimately break down, unable to endure the
Childhood Innocence and Social Dogma: An Atheist Father’s Struggle in a Religious Environment
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site My five-year-old son, Aram, asked me what God looks like. I told him I didn’t know. He said he would search Google, and Google Images showed him depictions of Jesus as God. How can
To My Jewish Friends: Truth Above Friendship… and the Confessions of a Human Seeking Life
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site To my Jewish friends: I have always felt affection toward you and perceived something truly beautiful within your souls. Recently, however, I have noticed that you have become deeply brutal. My approach has always
Financial Security: Between a Mother’s Care and Harsh Reality
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I have never managed to save a single penny in my entire life. Although I have successfully accomplished many things, saving money is one area where I have always failed. I have constantly pursued
The Trap of Unconsciousness: A Night of Suicide, Bittersweet Regret, and the Lifeline of Medication
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site These days, I recall my suicide attempt that took place several years ago. It was my first attempt, even though suicidal thoughts had crossed my mind at many points in my life. Nevertheless, that
Safe Schizophrenic in a Chaotic World: Between Medication and the Treachery of Alcohol
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Yesterday, for the first time in two years, I felt like I was losing control over myself. Usually, I can drink alcohol in public while maintaining my alertness despite its effects. Yesterday, however, I
Out of the Flock: Memories of a Childhood Bullying and Abuse in an Islamic School That Wasn’t Mine
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I recall my early childhood at that Islamic school, where the Palestinian children bullied me severely and beat me constantly. I vividly remember those Palestinian Islamic teachers and the school principal who hated me—how
Harassment in the Balance: A Personal Perspective on Abnormal Behavior and Its Consequences… and Confessions of a Man Who Thought About Harassing His Neighbor
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I often experience intrusive thoughts about harassing girls and women in public spaces or on public transportation—such as thinking about touching them—though I have never acted on these impulses. These thoughts feel like obsessions.