By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I feel that I influence others—that my abnormal feelings, resulting from my illness or the medications I take, affect those around me. I experience involuntary facial…
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Six Days Without Medication: Reclaiming My Stolen Emotions… A Struggle Between Medicated Sleep and Mental Freedom
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site It has been six days since I stopped taking my psychiatric medications. Some days, I quit them completely; on other days, I am forced to take…
Two Days of Brokenness: When the Shadow Returns to Inhabit Me… The Mystery of Voices and Time
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site A profound shift has occurred in my psychological and mental state over these past two days, worsening drastically; my mind feels deeply sick. I have begun…
Hospital Memories: When Walls Pull Us Back to Pain… Spirits in the Head, a Star on the Horizon, and Something in the Sky!
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Recently, ever since I stopped taking my medication, I’ve noticed that my emotions have been strongly drawn back toward the psychiatric hospital. It is as if…
Walls of Memory: How Homes Shaped My Schizophrenia… and When Trauma Distorted a Child’s Consciousness
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Early in my life, as a young child, I lived with my family in my late father’s house. I left that home when I was eight…
A Truce with the Mind: Why I Accepted My Fate with Medication—and the Brutal Ten-Day Journey
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site It has been two days since I resumed taking my medication after a brutal ten-day interruption. During that period, my mental state deteriorated significantly, leaving me…
A Month in Bethlehem Hospital: When the Cure Is Worse Than the Disease—My Journey Through ‘Quetiapine’ Hell
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site The last time I was admitted to the psychiatric hospital—when they initially refused to take me in on the first day, claiming I was an alcoholic…
Between Aircraft Skies and Spirit Realms: Who Is Reading My Thoughts? Are Our Minds Hacked or Naturally Exposed?
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site The possibility of aircraft reading my thoughts from the sky is questionable. In human mind-reading experiments, researchers typically need to place a person under equipment touching…
Beyond the World’s Noise: How I Created My Own World Away from People
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site I abandoned friendships back in my adolescence and never once felt the desire to befriend anyone. I retreated into isolation from the age of fourteen until…
My Safe Space: How the Struggle with Illness Transformed into Maturity and Peace
By the Author / Source: abuaram.site Through my long struggle with illness, I crafted a safe space of my own—one that evolved through gradual, incomplete stages over many years. In the beginning,…