{"id":1151,"date":"2026-08-28T10:26:05","date_gmt":"2026-08-28T10:26:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dev95.site\/?p=1151"},"modified":"2026-08-28T10:26:16","modified_gmt":"2026-08-28T10:26:16","slug":"hospital-memories-when-walls-pull-us-back-to-pain-spirits-in-the-head-a-star-on-the-horizon-and-something-in-the-sky","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dev95.site\/ar\/hospital-memories-when-walls-pull-us-back-to-pain-spirits-in-the-head-a-star-on-the-horizon-and-something-in-the-sky\/","title":{"rendered":"Hospital Memories: When Walls Pull Us Back to Pain&#8230; Spirits in the Head, a Star on the Horizon, and Something in the Sky!"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"dev95-1422671672\" class=\"dev95-- dev95-entity-placement\" role=\"region\" aria-label=\"\u0627\u0644\u0625\u0639\u0644\u0627\u0646\u0627\u062a\"><script async=\"async\" data-cfasync=\"false\" src=\"https:\/\/pl27862732.profitableratecpmnetwork.com\/2ad7a50e0bbc23ac6801d7b77c501463\/invoke.js\"><\/script>\r\n<div id=\"container-2ad7a50e0bbc23ac6801d7b77c501463\"><\/div><\/div><div id=\"dev95-2598899312\" class=\"dev95-before-content dev95-entity-placement\" role=\"region\" aria-label=\"\u0627\u0644\u0625\u0639\u0644\u0627\u0646\u0627\u062a\"><p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Stop wasting time on dead links! \ud83d\uded1 This smart platform automatically detects your device and country to give you the exact best offer instantly. 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It is as if my subconscious is replaying memories of that terrifying place the moment I quit the drugs. My schizophrenia gradually intensified, and my feelings and memories became tethered to that institution. Every time I am admitted, I experience terrible pain just knowing I am going there, suffering throughout the entire stay. The negativity and distress attached to it only compound. Stopping the medication also triggers psychological\u2014even delusional\u2014effects that may not stem directly from the illness itself, but rather from accumulated emotions. I hear spirits in my head telling me to take the medication; they revolt and grow active because I stopped, as if a spell has been cast over my soul and mind, tormenting me for taking this step. 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Meanwhile, something else shines a light on me, pointing toward me, growing larger in these moments. Every time this star flashes, I see an image\u2014an eye, like that of a beautiful weeping woman. I often feel it is the Virgin Mary herself. I might be imagining it, but most of the time, when this star shines, I feel it is her eye. Yet, at times, I perceive it differently.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This silent star orbits around me, pointing at me; it is profoundly quiet. Even in the moon, when I am not wearing my glasses, I see the image of Christ or the Virgin Mary forming in my blurred vision and the brightness of the moonlight. I do not believe in Mary or Christ, yet that is what I see. A real eye has even manifested in my physical life. On black screens and in dark spaces, I see the same thing: the eye of Christ, the eye atop the Masonic pyramid, or perhaps the Eye of Horus. 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The moment I see the eye of the Great Pyramid in my life through this light, resembling the Eye of Horus, I feel bound to a secret, even demonic, organization.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The idea of smart aircraft reading my thoughts, communicating with my mind, monitoring my voice calls, chat messages, Facebook posts, and WhatsApp chats\u2014even viewing my laptop screen, reading what I write before I publish it online, and listening to my conversations at home while trailing me from the sky\u2014mirrors the concept of local Israeli Freemasonry. This system produces charlatans who hold pacts with the spiritual realm, possessing its secrets, communicating with it, and understanding its inner workings. 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