By the Author / Source: abuaram.site
For nearly fourteen years, I have been under the tangible possession of unseen, hidden entities. They are everywhere among us—invisible and concealed unless they choose to reveal themselves, allowing you to see them as I do. Yet, even since my childhood, I was implicitly aware of them—silent, subtle, and sporadic. They have been sending me messages since I was five years old, as though they were present at my birth, as if they were part of my family, intangibly protecting and nurturing me. But, as I said, when I turned eighteen, they began manifesting to me in a different light.
I know that many people perceive these spirits and communicate with them, but my relationship with them may be distinct. At times, I feel I might be something sacred, a messenger, or chosen for a purpose through them—or perhaps not!
Approaching this from a purely clinical perspective—classifying it as schizophrenia and believing that the mind merely fabricates them, as some fools assume—is incorrect. Nevertheless, schizophrenia and these spirits are two sides of the same coin. For many years, I believed it was simply an illness. But there is no cure, no treatment capable of eradicating them, because they exist outside the mind—independent, real entities thinking of their own accord. The mind does not create them.
Since childhood, I believed in nothing; I was becoming a complete atheist. I doubted everything and constantly questioned my mother about God and His true nature. I was not a believer, but a skeptic. In my adolescence, I began reading books and watching documentaries about atheism and its philosophy, finding it compelling. Today, at thirty-two years old, I still consider myself an atheist and hold firmly to that conviction. What I want to make clear is that I have no ritual or remedy to cast these spirits away from me, and I doubt that a cross, a Star of David, or any sacred word or prayer could ever deliver me from them.
They come and go of their own volition; I have no control over them. They govern their own presence. I have undergone numerous psychiatric treatments in my life, even receiving monthly anti-psychotic injections for a year—a full clinical dosage for schizophrenia—yet they never vanished. No psychiatric medication can hide them, and these drugs only made me sicker; I fell into their trap. In the past, I could sleep through the night until noon without needing medication. Now, I want to stop taking them, but I can no longer sleep on my own. I suffer genuine psychosis when attempting to stop, akin to severe withdrawal symptoms.
I am living with this, and I have stopped seeking a cure. I only wish to break free from the medications because they make me feel ill. Yet, I remain in awe: how does this hidden world exist right beside me and everywhere across the globe? Who are these spirits? They do not tell me they are demons, jinn, or anything of that sort; they stubbornly insist that they are human like me—that they once possessed physical bodies and have now transitioned into the spirit world. Perhaps that is a good omen, suggesting that we only die in the physical body. Or perhaps they are lying! I cannot decipher their true nature; they could even be extraterrestrial beings communicating with me and with this world.
I have never met anyone who truly knows them or communicates with them, and no one talks about them openly. In mental institutions, they are reduced to mere “voices.” Why does no one wish to talk about them? Why does no one offer meaningful insight? Why has science concluded that schizophrenia is their sole root cause, and why were psychiatrists established to treat this absurdity? Perhaps we simply lack a proper, rational way to communicate with them, and there is nothing we can do about their presence.
We cannot even wage war against them or anything of the kind. We cannot touch them or harm them, but do they exert control over physical matter? I believe their control over matter is limited, yet if I am not mistaken, they might be capable of manipulating physical objects, potentially causing accidents and deaths. The question is: if they were with you, and you had no way to ward them off, what would you do? And what if you were an atheist? Consider also the possibility that they govern the world through certain human beings, perhaps relaying deeply confidential information to a select few. They are all-knowing regarding this world—privy to what minds conceal and every hidden place across the earth. Nothing is hidden from them; they know everything.
